emeraldsnakes

Title: Shades of Love
Fandom: Stargate
Series: Shade of Colour
Pairing: Cameron/Cameron
Rating: R
Summary: Cameron thinks about how is life has changed
AN: The idea for this fic was created a long time ago and most of this was actually written then, but I stalled in my decision about how much I was going to write about. I was struck by the random desire to look over this again today and somehow the Shades 'Verse wormed itself into this.

He knew this was wrong, on a moral and ethical scale, but how could it be wrong when it felt so right? He let out a sound half way between a moan and a yell as his partner teased him, pleasured him. His train of thought cut off every so often, but he couldn’t help but wonder why everyone thought what he had wasn’t right.

Love was love no matter who it was between, right? No, not always. Society wouldn’t see what he and his partner had as right, not if they knew the truth. It could be guessed just by looking at the two of them, but the truth was so obscure and unbelievable, he didn’t think it would be figured out. Society, even without knowing the truth wouldn’t accept them, they looked so much alike that they could be mistaken for brothers. They weren’t, not really.

He was in the process of changing his appearance, getting rid of his dark hair for a sandy blond bordering on light brown, growing it out a bit, and putting in non-prescription color contacts to give him hazel eyes. There wasn’t much else he could do.

A new wave of pleasure engulfed him as his lover’s mouth finished it’s teasing and swallowed him fully. As he arched up, trying to get more, the stray thought of what his parents would say, hell what his grandmother would say surfaced. None of them would be pleased, they’d damn him to an eternity in hell and then some. Before this ever happened he’d have damned himself, never believing that he could fall in love with who he did. Now though, now he was in bliss, and he wouldn’t trade it for the world.

The hot mouth left his cock and he looked down into eyes that mirrored his own. “Don’t stop,” he gasped.

A soft smile filtered over his lover’s lips and his cock was once again surrounded, sucked, licked, kissed. He’d been with many women before, he never thought he’d end up with a male lover. Men had never attracted him before, but his lover did, and only his lover.

His newly discovered sexuality didn’t bother him, his love was all that really mattered. He soon came, calling out his lovers name, his seed swallowed, and his entire being spiraling into ecstasy. Coming down from his high he smiled into the kiss his lover gave him, tasting himself on those sweet sensual lips.

His lover settled down beside him and snuggled into his side. He kissed the top of his head, again wondering why it was wrong, what they had. What they had was like incest, except they were the same person but from different realities.

The rip in time that caused multiple versions of SG-1 to end up in his universe hadn't been completely fixed just by sending all those teams back to their original homes. The cracks had remained, slowly healing but not fast enough. On a normal jaunt down one of the corridors on level 21 Cam had walked straight into one of the cracks. He'd ended up in a universe that had no knowledge of the Stargate, in a universe where his counterpart no longer worked for the Air Force but the San Francisco Police along side an earth born Vala Mal Doran.

Cam knew that he was really screwed up in the head, maybe one too many encounters with the Priors or an extra hard knock from Teal'c on the head, but he loved this man. He loved him with all his heart and it was because of that love that he was choosing not to return to his own universe.

Cameron sighed and shut his thoughts out, wrapping his arms around his alternate version and lover, and closed his eyes as sleep claimed him.